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Name: Sam Winchester
Canon: Supernatural
Original or Alternate Universe: Original
Canon Point: End of season 1
Number: random!
Setting: Here's a big ol' wiki with lots on Supernatural!
History:
Once upon a time, Sam Winchester was an average little baby with a (relatively) normal family; his mother had been from a very special family — a family of hunters who used to pursue and kill ghosts, monsters, supernatural creatures. However, with the death of her parents, Mary Winchester had left that all behind to start a simpler life with her love, John (a holy union practically celebrated by the angels upstairs); they had a son, Dean, and a few years later gave birth to Sammy here. From there, it almost seemed like smooth sailing. Unfortunately, when Sam was six months old, he was visited by a dark figure in his nursery; this figure was Azazel, a demon who makes deals and eventually feeds his blood to infants in order to instill them with demonic powers later in life.
Mary Winchester wakes up and finds him in the act of poisoning her son with his blood, and for that, she's killed Her husband rushes into the room just in time to see her pinned to the ceiling, bleeding from her stomach, before she bursts into flame. John tells Dean to get Sam out of there safely, but he's too late to save Mary. As they sit and watch the firemen put out the blaze, he decides to dedicate his life to finding the monster who killed his wife.
From this point on, for a long while, life on the road with a hunter for a father is all Sam really knew.
His earliest memories have been motels, cheap takeout, and his brother Dean keeping an always watchful eye on him while John's out killing the things that go bump in the night, still searching for what killed his wife. Until age 8, Sam believes that his mother had died in an automobile accident, and it's only when he finds his father's journal that he confronts his older brother and learns the truth. There are a lot of schools he passes through. Lotta' friends made, quickly lost. By the time he's a teenager, he helps Dean and John in their hunts.
Eventually, the life wears him down and he leaves the two after an intense argument about him attending school. He seeks a more normal life outside of the ghouls and goblins they deal with all too regularly and, freshly adult, he moves in to study at Stanford. Over time, Sammy develops a romantic relationship with Jessica Moore, who lives with him and becomes his girlfriend in the town of Palo Alto.
Life seems good. His test scores are good enough to send him off to law school. He just has an interview and it'll be smooth sailing. He's content.
This is around the time, at age 22, that his brother Dean comes back into the picture with some important facts to lay out: they haven't seen each other in about two years, their dad is MIA much to Dean's concern, and he wants Sam's help to figure out where the asshole had vanished to. Inevitably (begrudgingly), Sam accepts and goes on a weekend trip to look for John. After a not-too-fruitful search he returns home to the apartment— just in time to find Jessica pinned to the ceiling just like his mother, bleeding, lighting ablaze while he stares in horror. Dean has to drag him out of the burning building, and Sam decides to go along with him and return to the life of hunting, needing to avenge her death and find their father.
For the most part, it's plenty of cases, little to go on. Their father appears to be intentionally keeping one step ahead of them, and holds plenty of secrets of his own. During their trip, Sam begins having strange visions in his sleep that he learns are premonitions of things to come; he even sees a family who lives in their old childhood home being attacked by an entity. They travel back to the place they'd lived so shortly, and employ the help of one of his father's old friends Missouri, a well-respected psychic. When things go awry and the spirit isn't destroyed, the spirit of their mother intervenes and saves them before vanishing herself. At a certain point in their travels, Sam gets frustrated at their father and the game of cat and mouse, causing the brothers to separate during a case involving a scarecrow that comes to life; it's here that Sam meets Meg Masters, who will become an important figure in his history later on.
Of course, Sam eventually has a change of heart and returns to help Dean with the case, and continues with their trip across the country. Sam has more premonitions — this time, of a murder made to look like a suicide in Michigan. They learn that Max, a boy Sam's age with telekinetic powers, has been killing his family after suffering years of abuse; his real mother had died the same way Sam and Dean's had. It's here that Sam realizes his strange powers aren't just limited to visions, because he manages to use the same sort of telekinetic power that Max does. He isn't able to stop the abused man from killing himself out of desperation, though.
In Illinois, they run back into Meg Masters, who's revealed to be a demon who's attempting to track down and capture their father. John, Sam, and Dean manage to defeat her temporarily (unknown to them, only temporarily), but John admits that he's vulnerable around them and leaves them behind. Later on, their father finally reconnects long enough to tell them there's a very rare colt that can kill just about any supernatural creature, and that they have to obtain it so that they can finally get revenge for their mother (and Jess, in Sam's case). They take it back from vampires who have it in their possession and learn that it really works when they use it on the head honcho during an attack.
Meanwhile, Meg learns of this, and starts to systematically kill friends of the Winchesters in order to get them to surrender the Colt, while Sam has a vision of the yellow-eyed demon murdering an innocent family. Eventually Meg contacts them in the thick of things, telling John to meet her alone with the Colt or else more friends die, and he complies. However, she learns he had attempted to hand over a fake Colt and captures him. In the meanwhile, Sam and Dean successfully save the family, but they have another problem on their hands:
The yellow-eyed demon is still alive, and their father is in big ol' trouble. They travel to a fellow hunter and friend, Bobby Singer, in order to recruit his help in getting their dad out of doom and gloom. Meg tracks 'em down, but they manage to capture her in a seal and exorcise the demon from Meg's body. Before she dies from the injuries she'd sustained earlier, the human Meg gives clues as to the location of John Winchester. They find their father possessed by Azazel, the yellow-eyed demon that had killed their mother all those years ago. After a difficult struggle, Sam shoots his father, but cannot bring himself to fire a finishing blow that would have killed Azazel as well. The demon escapes.
As Sam drives his injured father and brother to a hospital, a demon possessing a truck driver slams their diesel truck into the impala, leaving the three inside badly injured and unconscious.
Personality:
Sam is by nature an analytical person, and in a journal released as a sort of prequel to the series, his father notes that he's a very studious and curious child, who liked to watch and notice things more than anything — and that when he had something to ask, it was always a damn good question to ask. He likes to take a step back and really evaluate a situation, and was always the one to go to when research needed to be carried out, especially because Sam finds less pleasure in hunting than his family ever did. He wants to be responsible and make the good choices, especially if he thinks it's for the best. And if/when they're the wrong choices, the kind that hurt more than help, he's his biggest critic and he'll often carry that guilt deep down until he almost can't deal with it anymore. In one of the published books, John Winchester points out that Sam seems to just... shut down. And more over, he bottles things up so much (out of fear of the recoil, perhaps), that when it finally comes to light, he can't control it.
That serious atmosphere and sense of focus and responsibility does make him a bit of a wet blanket — well, to people like his brother, anyway. While by no means a saint, he typically strays from seeking sex, heavy drinking, or anything his big bro would have clapped him on the shoulder for. And when he does drink, it tends to be a very pathetic sight (but at least he's a happy drunk... uh, in most cases). Regardless of his more serious nature in contrast to his brother, he's much less burdened than his future self, young and impressionable and having prank battles with Dean. In a way, they've adapted to their circumstances. Certainly, they haven't been beaten down by future events yet. Things are more black and white, wrong vs. right, just a band of people keeping people safe; that's one part of the profession Sam actually likes. Keeping people safe. Bringing some calmness after calamity. And while it seems like he's a regular Eeyore, he's actually not that depressing to be around: he laughs, teases, acts like his age (and less some) even with this idea that he's a Grown-up. He's got a healthy sense of humor (when not baffled by his brother's from time to time) and likes to smile. A lot. And hug — hugging is good. Shhh. Just hug it out. Emotions are good. He's the guy your parents would approve of, if you brought him home.
And despite all the things that sucked about his childhood, he wasn't always a sad or angry sack of shit about things 24/7. He had a lot of good times between the things that royally bother him about back then; you make the most of those things, y'know? He knows it could have been worse. Boy, does it know that, and he feels a little better about his old problems when faced with someone else who had a far worse childhood than him (Max had a horrible one, and he ended up self-destructing in the worst ways). Even he has to admit, it could have been worse. Way, way worse. He could have been emotionally destroyed and trying to kill his family, after all... Who knows how things could have been different. It's just — not all negative. He could never say it was all bad. And at the same time, even though he's still at odds with John often enough, by the end of the first season he's starting to understand his logic a little better. Though, Dean says even if Sam apologized for some things, they'd be butting heads minutes later anyway. Sam didn't exactly disagree there. :|
Speaking of which, out of the three Winchesters, it's easy to see Sam's the more emotionally charged one, perhaps because he was given more room to be. Dean's a soldier built off his father, but Sam's always rebelled from that image, always strived to be different because he was. He asked too many questions, and pried even when he was told not to. Sam isn't fond of secrets, even if he's hypocritical enough to keep down a few of his own. He wants to shake the two of them and tell them how they don't need to be 'hardened soldiers', that the hunt is taking the common sense and happiness and genuine life pleasures right out of their lives. Sam told his father he was afraid of what lurked in the closet — he gave him a gun. He wanted to spend a Christmas with his family — daddy goes hunting while Dean resorts to stealing, and he to gift-wrapping in newspaper. He wants to do school activities — John takes him hunting to better his aim for when he's older. He wants to go play soccer in the big leagues — time to move, son.
It's why for a long time, Sam resented his father, and even though he's come to understand him a little better, there's still a rift and an obvious clash in their ideals and personalities. Sam was never given the answers, only given a gun and told that this was his place, and he had no other way out. He would be a hunter until they found this demon who killed a woman Sam couldn't even remember. For someone who was smart and knew it, who thought he could be whatever he put his mind to, his father's words cut deep and drove him further away than it ever did bring him closer. Even worse was Dean's wholehearted agreement with their dad. And while John had good intentions and was ultimately right about the horrible things bound to come along, Sam just wanted out of that life sprinkled with traces of joy, in-between mounting family frustrations and violence. Family is supposed to congratulate you for wanting to be something in life. Family is supposed to be proud when you say you want to educate yourself and go to school. To him, his family basically told him he was no good to them outside of being one of them: our way, or the highway. So he chose the highway, unaware of the Big Picture that even John didn't know much about. Chose it because he wanted out, but also because nothing he did ever seemed to reach what was expected; Sam Winchester left thinking wholeheartedly that his father was never proud of him, and that he wasn't good enough to earn that pride. In fact, he was disappointed in him (which is half true, but we all know John is a... complicated dude).
Dean: So what are you saying, that Dad was disappointed in you?
Sam: Was? Is. Always has been.
***
Sam enjoys normalcy. Wants it. Has wanted it his whole life, since he understood what normalcy was. He wants to have a simple life with long-standing friendships, less loneliness, and more interactions outside of his gun being pointed at a creature's face. He knows what he wants; he wants out. And most importantly of all, he doesn't want to be considered a freak. Often in the series he's portrayed as a little kid who just wants to fit in and be like everyone else. He strays from the family 'business'. He tells his teacher he doesn't want to be like them. His Heaven is comprised of times in his life that he felt like a normal kid. Something as simple as having a small gift exchange with his brother for Christmas ebbs the bitterness he's collected over the years — collected over a series of many fake credit cards and a general lack of parents or friends. He thrives to be something ordinary, and perhaps, in a way (as he mentions later on in another season) he knew as a child that something was 'wrong' with him and that he wasn't 'clean', and sought it out even more. Now that he's showing symptoms of something that feels inhuman, there's a simmering fear under the surface that he can't shake off. There's something dark there, and while his goodness overwhelms it, it could be just a matter of time before something... kick-starts it. So he runs.
Sam: Even at Stanford, deep down, I never really fit in.
Dean: Well, that's cause you're a freak.
But then suddenly, just as he was given a taste of what he always wanted after 18+ years of motel rooms and convenience stores, a place where he had friends and ambitions and love — it was ripped right out of his hands. Being independent and wanting out of an unhealthy world caused the person he loved to die a horrible death (something he will feel guilty for for the rest of his life, probably; he has nightmares constantly about her). That person, that unspoken 'core' that kept his dream a reality, was burned up, along with all the possessions he'd managed to collect for those few years. No rooted friends. No rooted house for him to go home to every night. There's no such thing allowed for him, and it hurts to know that maybe escaping from all that isn't 'allowed'. And what makes it worse, is that he dreamed it would happen this way before it even did. Perhaps he could have stopped it from happening, if he were there like he should have been. To protect her. By the time he goes with Dean, he's stewing in all these thoughts.
Dean's just about all he has left that he can actively care about and be around, and while he loves his brother and would die for him if faced with the choice, it's a hard pill to swallow.
Basically, it's like giving a starving guy a sandwich and then slapping it out of his hands at the last second.
A lot of people have aspirations for the future. Sam's were all thrown out the window. And unknown to him, his life has been manipulated to bring him down like this from the get-go. Couldn't let Sammy have what he wanted when there were bigger plans in motion, right? Right. And to handle that, Sam temporarily leans toward vengeance. He tells Dean that it's all he can think about, at one point. He almost gets himself killed trying to rush into a burning building to get the yellow-eyed bastard; it's easy to see, he's had a horrible role model when it comes to getting revenge, because all his life, his #1 example of it was John's journey. He only starts to back away and calm down when he realizes, in the season finale, that his father is so consumed by his 'mission', he doesn't see the most important thing in the car: them. Their lives. An injured Dean, a nearly destroyed family, a demon that didn't mean shit at the moment compared to that. Does he still want revenge? Hell yeah. Will it manifest into something bad later, even after the yellow-eyed demon is killed? You bet. But for now, he's scaled back and capped his anger again, this time for the better.
Soooo... other than being royally fucked over by the grand plans of fate, what's up with Sam? Well, like mentioned before, he's emotional; this is typically an upside and a downside to his personality. Even with his secrets — despite the deep dark things lurking in his blood — he's a caring individual who's more than likely going to find sympathy for anyone who's going through a hard time (and his brother makes fun of this sort of thing on a regular basis, much to his displeasure) and tends to be more emotionally open and endears himself to that same output. And likewise, his sense of doing the Right Thing and protecting innocent lives still prevails, even in the most complicated of situations. He's a little naive, a little too soft-edged, but he'd prefer that than being the monsters he hunts... even if he can empathize with them as well, sometimes. He tries to pry out the things people keep hidden away, even if he does it as well. It goes alongside a bravery all the Winchesters seem to develop: if he needs to get his hands dirty and leap into a fight, he'll do it without a second thought. In the episode Dead in the Water, he reaches into a bathtub to save a woman being forcibly drowned, even if he's not entirely sure what the outcome would be for him. Likewise in the same episode, he has no hesitation in leaping into a haunted lake with his brother to save a little boy. He uses himself as a meat shield for innocent civilians in Wendigo and tries desperately to reason with a man with a gun in Nightmare. Basically, the Winchesters are great at caring enough about human life to do whatever they had to. And even if there isn't life involved, they're up to the challenge. Sometimes to a recklessly suicidal degree (in Sam's case, when it becomes personal and rationality gets heaved out the window.) Kid's got a lot of pent-up anger, y'know?
Dean: This is about Jessica, isn’t it? You think that’s your dirty little secret, that you killed her somehow? Sam, this has got to stop, man. I mean, the nightmares and calling her name out in the middle of the night — it’s gonna kill you. Now listen to me — it wasn’t your fault. If you wanna blame something, then blame the thing that killed her. Or hell, why don’t you take a swing at me? I mean, I’m the one that dragged you away from her in the first place.
Sam: Look… you’re my brother, and I’d die for you, but there are some things I need to keep to myself.
And lest we forget: Dean Winchester. The whole show is built around them being dumbass brothers who can't get along or don't project
their feelings worth a crap, isn't it? Sam's relationship with him at the start of the story is cracked by a sense of betrayal from both sides: Sammy's pissed that Dean took his father's side, and Dean's pissed that Sam walked out. But over the course of the first season, we see pieces of a puzzle being shuffled back into place: they're very different people, don't always understand where the other's coming from, and generally piss each other off — sometimes on purpose — but at the core of that is a very strong bond forged out of dysfunctional lives and a dependency that hasn't been forgotten: Sam owes Dean a lot. And at one point in season 2, he openly says that Dean gave everything to protect him, and he'd do the same. Sam's great at being a snooty little asshole at times, especially when Dean acts up, but despite sticking his nose in the air at his brother he really is willing to die for him. The little things count. Laughing or having a beer or Sam being unamused at a stupid joke, those things count. And while sometimes Sam isn't sure about Dean's ideas or his judgement calls, you can 100% guarantee if his brother jumps into something, he'll be right behind him, if not at his side doing something stupid, too. Seeing eye-to-eye doesn't always happen but the teamwork there is obvious within even a few minutes of meeting them on the job. Not only that, but their relationship is mending as they spend time together — honestly, it's part of what Sam's clinging to right now after his dream life has been broken.
But hey. Sam is amazingly good at pretending he's okay. He's stubborn like a Winchester, headstrong like one, and he has a slew of issues that he'd rather Not Talk About. I'm sure this will bode well for future events. Surely.
Abilities, Weaknesses and Power Limitations: In Sam's timeline, he still has powers developing from the demon blood Azazel had fed him in the crib, and Azazel is still on the loose. As it is, he may still have random visions, or on occasion when pushed have telekinetic abilities. Also, he gets 'vibes' when supernatural auras are around, or whatever. Because this is literally spoken of once and not really addressed, it's safe to assume it's just a very minor ability inset from Yellow Eyes, and will be used very sparingly. And of course with permission. Because he hasn't transitioned any further from this point in canon, that's about all I plan to have him be capable of; if it ever changes up for any reason whatsoever and something develops, I'll request it through the mods first and foremost!
He's a pretty damn good hunter, and knows all the tricks of the trade; physically, he's fit, mentally, he's quick. He was taught by his father and brother all the ropes and he makes sure he does it well enough, even with his obvious disconnect compared to them. Part of him is an actor, capable of slipping through security to find any facet of the truth during their hunts. Alongside his brother, he's quite good at matching him step by step and keeping the illusion alive. Teamwork is an important part of their daily lives, doing what they do. And they do it well, despite their sometimes rocky relationship. He's very book-smart, well-read in a lot of areas, even outside of hunting.
... Also, he has a fear of clowns.
Fuck you, Dean.
Inventory:
• A lumberjack's wet dream: hoodie, long-sleeved flannel shirt, t-shirt. The usual outfit of a hunter, duh.
• Some bare essentials from the car to keep stowed away in the TQ locker:
Appearance: 6'5", brown hair and mostly green eyes (those fuckers keep changing whenever they want idk); he's portrayed by Jared Padalecki. He likes layers and nice walks on the beach.
What a moose.
This is an accurate representation of how he was captured from wildlife and taken to the Tranquility:
Age: 22 (D.O.B. : May 2, 1983)
AU Clarification: N/A
S A M P L E S
Log Sample:
No problem, he thinks, straightening the lapels of a cheap black suit. All he had to do was whip out the fake ID and try not to look like he was just thrown into a bookshelf an hour earlier — which is still seriously tender, no thanks to a couple dozen china plates and a vase. Dean of course stayed behind in the Impala with a massively ugly split lip and swollen eye to accompany a sprained ankle, none too amused with his brother's tight-lipped grimace-turned-smile (look, it's not funny that he got hurt at all, buuut the way he walked right into that fist was priceless). He can work cellphone details. There's the spirit. And meanwhile, he can get a few answers out of the local sheriff they'd met a few days prior; no matter which case of obvious shape-shifter they strutted into, it consistently traced back to the police station. Soggy, gross piles of skin weren't the only private eye works a pair of hunters could pick up on, after all.
Heeee's pretty sure Dean made a quip about cops being supernaturally corrupt or something, but — well. He was engrossed in reading at the time.
Ten deaths over a span of a month, all people who'd been freed from their cells on bail bonds. Clearly somebody with a vendetta against would-be criminals wasn't too enthused by the prospect; everyone in the town's been told it's some nutcracker vigilante, but they're also the people who have no clue what the hell a shape-shifter is. For now, use the situation to our advantage. Whoever the guy who threw them around like a punching bag is, he sure isn't about to cause a ruckus right in front of a bunch of co-workers with loaded guns.
Sam sits down in too-soft chair and clears his throat, while the sheriff nods his way.
"Sorry to hear your partner was put out of commission for this case, Agent — what was it again? Pennywise?"
The most unamused smile ever follows.
"... That'd be me."
... Next time he's picking the last names.
Comms Sample:
... This is definitely one of my weirder days.
[100% definitely. Once you add 'space' to the equation, there's not much else you can add to make it more crazy. Except, y'know, for all the different awful things that've been recorded happening around here. He sighs through his nose. So done with your weird shit, Tranquility.]
But I guess there's no point keeping score now; actually, I was wondering how many of you had any written material aboard the ship? Any at all that would be historically helpful? Myths? Tall tales? Anything like that. I have a few books myself, but I'd since I'm stuck here, I might as well stay updated on just about anything I can get my hands on.
[Also any shred of knowledge might just save his ass someday, but still.]
And if anyone had firsthand accounts of the things this ship does, I'd like to hear about it... if it's not too much to ask, since it can be pretty brutal around here as far as I've heard. [The last thing he needs is to step on anyone's toes other than his brother's. Besides, it's his brother's job to say all the politically incorrect and/or completely unhelpful stuff.]
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throwsdown C H A R A C T E R I N F O R M A T I O N
Name: Sam Winchester
Canon: Supernatural
Original or Alternate Universe: Original
Canon Point: End of season 1
Number: random!
Setting: Here's a big ol' wiki with lots on Supernatural!
History:
Once upon a time, Sam Winchester was an average little baby with a (relatively) normal family; his mother had been from a very special family — a family of hunters who used to pursue and kill ghosts, monsters, supernatural creatures. However, with the death of her parents, Mary Winchester had left that all behind to start a simpler life with her love, John (a holy union practically celebrated by the angels upstairs); they had a son, Dean, and a few years later gave birth to Sammy here. From there, it almost seemed like smooth sailing. Unfortunately, when Sam was six months old, he was visited by a dark figure in his nursery; this figure was Azazel, a demon who makes deals and eventually feeds his blood to infants in order to instill them with demonic powers later in life.
Mary Winchester wakes up and finds him in the act of poisoning her son with his blood, and for that, she's killed Her husband rushes into the room just in time to see her pinned to the ceiling, bleeding from her stomach, before she bursts into flame. John tells Dean to get Sam out of there safely, but he's too late to save Mary. As they sit and watch the firemen put out the blaze, he decides to dedicate his life to finding the monster who killed his wife.
From this point on, for a long while, life on the road with a hunter for a father is all Sam really knew.
His earliest memories have been motels, cheap takeout, and his brother Dean keeping an always watchful eye on him while John's out killing the things that go bump in the night, still searching for what killed his wife. Until age 8, Sam believes that his mother had died in an automobile accident, and it's only when he finds his father's journal that he confronts his older brother and learns the truth. There are a lot of schools he passes through. Lotta' friends made, quickly lost. By the time he's a teenager, he helps Dean and John in their hunts.
Eventually, the life wears him down and he leaves the two after an intense argument about him attending school. He seeks a more normal life outside of the ghouls and goblins they deal with all too regularly and, freshly adult, he moves in to study at Stanford. Over time, Sammy develops a romantic relationship with Jessica Moore, who lives with him and becomes his girlfriend in the town of Palo Alto.
Life seems good. His test scores are good enough to send him off to law school. He just has an interview and it'll be smooth sailing. He's content.
This is around the time, at age 22, that his brother Dean comes back into the picture with some important facts to lay out: they haven't seen each other in about two years, their dad is MIA much to Dean's concern, and he wants Sam's help to figure out where the asshole had vanished to. Inevitably (begrudgingly), Sam accepts and goes on a weekend trip to look for John. After a not-too-fruitful search he returns home to the apartment— just in time to find Jessica pinned to the ceiling just like his mother, bleeding, lighting ablaze while he stares in horror. Dean has to drag him out of the burning building, and Sam decides to go along with him and return to the life of hunting, needing to avenge her death and find their father.
For the most part, it's plenty of cases, little to go on. Their father appears to be intentionally keeping one step ahead of them, and holds plenty of secrets of his own. During their trip, Sam begins having strange visions in his sleep that he learns are premonitions of things to come; he even sees a family who lives in their old childhood home being attacked by an entity. They travel back to the place they'd lived so shortly, and employ the help of one of his father's old friends Missouri, a well-respected psychic. When things go awry and the spirit isn't destroyed, the spirit of their mother intervenes and saves them before vanishing herself. At a certain point in their travels, Sam gets frustrated at their father and the game of cat and mouse, causing the brothers to separate during a case involving a scarecrow that comes to life; it's here that Sam meets Meg Masters, who will become an important figure in his history later on.
Of course, Sam eventually has a change of heart and returns to help Dean with the case, and continues with their trip across the country. Sam has more premonitions — this time, of a murder made to look like a suicide in Michigan. They learn that Max, a boy Sam's age with telekinetic powers, has been killing his family after suffering years of abuse; his real mother had died the same way Sam and Dean's had. It's here that Sam realizes his strange powers aren't just limited to visions, because he manages to use the same sort of telekinetic power that Max does. He isn't able to stop the abused man from killing himself out of desperation, though.
In Illinois, they run back into Meg Masters, who's revealed to be a demon who's attempting to track down and capture their father. John, Sam, and Dean manage to defeat her temporarily (unknown to them, only temporarily), but John admits that he's vulnerable around them and leaves them behind. Later on, their father finally reconnects long enough to tell them there's a very rare colt that can kill just about any supernatural creature, and that they have to obtain it so that they can finally get revenge for their mother (and Jess, in Sam's case). They take it back from vampires who have it in their possession and learn that it really works when they use it on the head honcho during an attack.
Meanwhile, Meg learns of this, and starts to systematically kill friends of the Winchesters in order to get them to surrender the Colt, while Sam has a vision of the yellow-eyed demon murdering an innocent family. Eventually Meg contacts them in the thick of things, telling John to meet her alone with the Colt or else more friends die, and he complies. However, she learns he had attempted to hand over a fake Colt and captures him. In the meanwhile, Sam and Dean successfully save the family, but they have another problem on their hands:
The yellow-eyed demon is still alive, and their father is in big ol' trouble. They travel to a fellow hunter and friend, Bobby Singer, in order to recruit his help in getting their dad out of doom and gloom. Meg tracks 'em down, but they manage to capture her in a seal and exorcise the demon from Meg's body. Before she dies from the injuries she'd sustained earlier, the human Meg gives clues as to the location of John Winchester. They find their father possessed by Azazel, the yellow-eyed demon that had killed their mother all those years ago. After a difficult struggle, Sam shoots his father, but cannot bring himself to fire a finishing blow that would have killed Azazel as well. The demon escapes.
As Sam drives his injured father and brother to a hospital, a demon possessing a truck driver slams their diesel truck into the impala, leaving the three inside badly injured and unconscious.
Personality:
Sam is by nature an analytical person, and in a journal released as a sort of prequel to the series, his father notes that he's a very studious and curious child, who liked to watch and notice things more than anything — and that when he had something to ask, it was always a damn good question to ask. He likes to take a step back and really evaluate a situation, and was always the one to go to when research needed to be carried out, especially because Sam finds less pleasure in hunting than his family ever did. He wants to be responsible and make the good choices, especially if he thinks it's for the best. And if/when they're the wrong choices, the kind that hurt more than help, he's his biggest critic and he'll often carry that guilt deep down until he almost can't deal with it anymore. In one of the published books, John Winchester points out that Sam seems to just... shut down. And more over, he bottles things up so much (out of fear of the recoil, perhaps), that when it finally comes to light, he can't control it.
That serious atmosphere and sense of focus and responsibility does make him a bit of a wet blanket — well, to people like his brother, anyway. While by no means a saint, he typically strays from seeking sex, heavy drinking, or anything his big bro would have clapped him on the shoulder for. And when he does drink, it tends to be a very pathetic sight (but at least he's a happy drunk... uh, in most cases). Regardless of his more serious nature in contrast to his brother, he's much less burdened than his future self, young and impressionable and having prank battles with Dean. In a way, they've adapted to their circumstances. Certainly, they haven't been beaten down by future events yet. Things are more black and white, wrong vs. right, just a band of people keeping people safe; that's one part of the profession Sam actually likes. Keeping people safe. Bringing some calmness after calamity. And while it seems like he's a regular Eeyore, he's actually not that depressing to be around: he laughs, teases, acts like his age (and less some) even with this idea that he's a Grown-up. He's got a healthy sense of humor (when not baffled by his brother's from time to time) and likes to smile. A lot. And hug — hugging is good. Shhh. Just hug it out. Emotions are good. He's the guy your parents would approve of, if you brought him home.
And despite all the things that sucked about his childhood, he wasn't always a sad or angry sack of shit about things 24/7. He had a lot of good times between the things that royally bother him about back then; you make the most of those things, y'know? He knows it could have been worse. Boy, does it know that, and he feels a little better about his old problems when faced with someone else who had a far worse childhood than him (Max had a horrible one, and he ended up self-destructing in the worst ways). Even he has to admit, it could have been worse. Way, way worse. He could have been emotionally destroyed and trying to kill his family, after all... Who knows how things could have been different. It's just — not all negative. He could never say it was all bad. And at the same time, even though he's still at odds with John often enough, by the end of the first season he's starting to understand his logic a little better. Though, Dean says even if Sam apologized for some things, they'd be butting heads minutes later anyway. Sam didn't exactly disagree there. :|
Sam: [To Dean] When I told Dad I was scared of the thing in my closet, he gave me a .45.
Speaking of which, out of the three Winchesters, it's easy to see Sam's the more emotionally charged one, perhaps because he was given more room to be. Dean's a soldier built off his father, but Sam's always rebelled from that image, always strived to be different because he was. He asked too many questions, and pried even when he was told not to. Sam isn't fond of secrets, even if he's hypocritical enough to keep down a few of his own. He wants to shake the two of them and tell them how they don't need to be 'hardened soldiers', that the hunt is taking the common sense and happiness and genuine life pleasures right out of their lives. Sam told his father he was afraid of what lurked in the closet — he gave him a gun. He wanted to spend a Christmas with his family — daddy goes hunting while Dean resorts to stealing, and he to gift-wrapping in newspaper. He wants to do school activities — John takes him hunting to better his aim for when he's older. He wants to go play soccer in the big leagues — time to move, son.
Dean: You can pretend all you want, Sammy. But sooner or later you're going to have to face up to who you really are.
Sam: Who is that?
Sam: Who is that?
Dean: One of us.
It's why for a long time, Sam resented his father, and even though he's come to understand him a little better, there's still a rift and an obvious clash in their ideals and personalities. Sam was never given the answers, only given a gun and told that this was his place, and he had no other way out. He would be a hunter until they found this demon who killed a woman Sam couldn't even remember. For someone who was smart and knew it, who thought he could be whatever he put his mind to, his father's words cut deep and drove him further away than it ever did bring him closer. Even worse was Dean's wholehearted agreement with their dad. And while John had good intentions and was ultimately right about the horrible things bound to come along, Sam just wanted out of that life sprinkled with traces of joy, in-between mounting family frustrations and violence. Family is supposed to congratulate you for wanting to be something in life. Family is supposed to be proud when you say you want to educate yourself and go to school. To him, his family basically told him he was no good to them outside of being one of them: our way, or the highway. So he chose the highway, unaware of the Big Picture that even John didn't know much about. Chose it because he wanted out, but also because nothing he did ever seemed to reach what was expected; Sam Winchester left thinking wholeheartedly that his father was never proud of him, and that he wasn't good enough to earn that pride. In fact, he was disappointed in him (which is half true, but we all know John is a... complicated dude).
Dean: So what are you saying, that Dad was disappointed in you?
Sam: Was? Is. Always has been.
***
Sam Winchester: [about Larry with his son] Remind you of somebody?
[Dean looks at them, confused]
[Dean looks at them, confused]
Sam Winchester: Dad?
Dean Winchester: [surprised] Dad never treated us like that.
Dean Winchester: [surprised] Dad never treated us like that.
Sam Winchester: [laughs] Well, Dad never treated you like that, you were perfect. He was all over my case.
[Dean thinks about it, shakes his head]
[Dean thinks about it, shakes his head]
Sam Winchester: You don't remember.
Dean Winchester: Well, maybe he had to raise his voice, but sometimes you were out of line!
Dean Winchester: Well, maybe he had to raise his voice, but sometimes you were out of line!
Sam Winchester: [sarcastic] Right, right, like when I said I'd rather play soccer than learn bow-hunting.
Dean Winchester: Bow-hunting's an important skill!
Dean Winchester: Bow-hunting's an important skill!
Sam enjoys normalcy. Wants it. Has wanted it his whole life, since he understood what normalcy was. He wants to have a simple life with long-standing friendships, less loneliness, and more interactions outside of his gun being pointed at a creature's face. He knows what he wants; he wants out. And most importantly of all, he doesn't want to be considered a freak. Often in the series he's portrayed as a little kid who just wants to fit in and be like everyone else. He strays from the family 'business'. He tells his teacher he doesn't want to be like them. His Heaven is comprised of times in his life that he felt like a normal kid. Something as simple as having a small gift exchange with his brother for Christmas ebbs the bitterness he's collected over the years — collected over a series of many fake credit cards and a general lack of parents or friends. He thrives to be something ordinary, and perhaps, in a way (as he mentions later on in another season) he knew as a child that something was 'wrong' with him and that he wasn't 'clean', and sought it out even more. Now that he's showing symptoms of something that feels inhuman, there's a simmering fear under the surface that he can't shake off. There's something dark there, and while his goodness overwhelms it, it could be just a matter of time before something... kick-starts it. So he runs.
Sam: Even at Stanford, deep down, I never really fit in.
Dean: Well, that's cause you're a freak.
But then suddenly, just as he was given a taste of what he always wanted after 18+ years of motel rooms and convenience stores, a place where he had friends and ambitions and love — it was ripped right out of his hands. Being independent and wanting out of an unhealthy world caused the person he loved to die a horrible death (something he will feel guilty for for the rest of his life, probably; he has nightmares constantly about her). That person, that unspoken 'core' that kept his dream a reality, was burned up, along with all the possessions he'd managed to collect for those few years. No rooted friends. No rooted house for him to go home to every night. There's no such thing allowed for him, and it hurts to know that maybe escaping from all that isn't 'allowed'. And what makes it worse, is that he dreamed it would happen this way before it even did. Perhaps he could have stopped it from happening, if he were there like he should have been. To protect her. By the time he goes with Dean, he's stewing in all these thoughts.
Dean's just about all he has left that he can actively care about and be around, and while he loves his brother and would die for him if faced with the choice, it's a hard pill to swallow.
Basically, it's like giving a starving guy a sandwich and then slapping it out of his hands at the last second.
A lot of people have aspirations for the future. Sam's were all thrown out the window. And unknown to him, his life has been manipulated to bring him down like this from the get-go. Couldn't let Sammy have what he wanted when there were bigger plans in motion, right? Right. And to handle that, Sam temporarily leans toward vengeance. He tells Dean that it's all he can think about, at one point. He almost gets himself killed trying to rush into a burning building to get the yellow-eyed bastard; it's easy to see, he's had a horrible role model when it comes to getting revenge, because all his life, his #1 example of it was John's journey. He only starts to back away and calm down when he realizes, in the season finale, that his father is so consumed by his 'mission', he doesn't see the most important thing in the car: them. Their lives. An injured Dean, a nearly destroyed family, a demon that didn't mean shit at the moment compared to that. Does he still want revenge? Hell yeah. Will it manifest into something bad later, even after the yellow-eyed demon is killed? You bet. But for now, he's scaled back and capped his anger again, this time for the better.
Soooo... other than being royally fucked over by the grand plans of fate, what's up with Sam? Well, like mentioned before, he's emotional; this is typically an upside and a downside to his personality. Even with his secrets — despite the deep dark things lurking in his blood — he's a caring individual who's more than likely going to find sympathy for anyone who's going through a hard time (and his brother makes fun of this sort of thing on a regular basis, much to his displeasure) and tends to be more emotionally open and endears himself to that same output. And likewise, his sense of doing the Right Thing and protecting innocent lives still prevails, even in the most complicated of situations. He's a little naive, a little too soft-edged, but he'd prefer that than being the monsters he hunts... even if he can empathize with them as well, sometimes. He tries to pry out the things people keep hidden away, even if he does it as well. It goes alongside a bravery all the Winchesters seem to develop: if he needs to get his hands dirty and leap into a fight, he'll do it without a second thought. In the episode Dead in the Water, he reaches into a bathtub to save a woman being forcibly drowned, even if he's not entirely sure what the outcome would be for him. Likewise in the same episode, he has no hesitation in leaping into a haunted lake with his brother to save a little boy. He uses himself as a meat shield for innocent civilians in Wendigo and tries desperately to reason with a man with a gun in Nightmare. Basically, the Winchesters are great at caring enough about human life to do whatever they had to. And even if there isn't life involved, they're up to the challenge. Sometimes to a recklessly suicidal degree (in Sam's case, when it becomes personal and rationality gets heaved out the window.) Kid's got a lot of pent-up anger, y'know?
Dean: This is about Jessica, isn’t it? You think that’s your dirty little secret, that you killed her somehow? Sam, this has got to stop, man. I mean, the nightmares and calling her name out in the middle of the night — it’s gonna kill you. Now listen to me — it wasn’t your fault. If you wanna blame something, then blame the thing that killed her. Or hell, why don’t you take a swing at me? I mean, I’m the one that dragged you away from her in the first place.
Sam: Look… you’re my brother, and I’d die for you, but there are some things I need to keep to myself.
And lest we forget: Dean Winchester. The whole show is built around them being dumbass brothers who can't get along or don't project
their feelings worth a crap, isn't it? Sam's relationship with him at the start of the story is cracked by a sense of betrayal from both sides: Sammy's pissed that Dean took his father's side, and Dean's pissed that Sam walked out. But over the course of the first season, we see pieces of a puzzle being shuffled back into place: they're very different people, don't always understand where the other's coming from, and generally piss each other off — sometimes on purpose — but at the core of that is a very strong bond forged out of dysfunctional lives and a dependency that hasn't been forgotten: Sam owes Dean a lot. And at one point in season 2, he openly says that Dean gave everything to protect him, and he'd do the same. Sam's great at being a snooty little asshole at times, especially when Dean acts up, but despite sticking his nose in the air at his brother he really is willing to die for him. The little things count. Laughing or having a beer or Sam being unamused at a stupid joke, those things count. And while sometimes Sam isn't sure about Dean's ideas or his judgement calls, you can 100% guarantee if his brother jumps into something, he'll be right behind him, if not at his side doing something stupid, too. Seeing eye-to-eye doesn't always happen but the teamwork there is obvious within even a few minutes of meeting them on the job. Not only that, but their relationship is mending as they spend time together — honestly, it's part of what Sam's clinging to right now after his dream life has been broken.
But hey. Sam is amazingly good at pretending he's okay. He's stubborn like a Winchester, headstrong like one, and he has a slew of issues that he'd rather Not Talk About. I'm sure this will bode well for future events. Surely.
Abilities, Weaknesses and Power Limitations: In Sam's timeline, he still has powers developing from the demon blood Azazel had fed him in the crib, and Azazel is still on the loose. As it is, he may still have random visions, or on occasion when pushed have telekinetic abilities. Also, he gets 'vibes' when supernatural auras are around, or whatever. Because this is literally spoken of once and not really addressed, it's safe to assume it's just a very minor ability inset from Yellow Eyes, and will be used very sparingly. And of course with permission. Because he hasn't transitioned any further from this point in canon, that's about all I plan to have him be capable of; if it ever changes up for any reason whatsoever and something develops, I'll request it through the mods first and foremost!
He's a pretty damn good hunter, and knows all the tricks of the trade; physically, he's fit, mentally, he's quick. He was taught by his father and brother all the ropes and he makes sure he does it well enough, even with his obvious disconnect compared to them. Part of him is an actor, capable of slipping through security to find any facet of the truth during their hunts. Alongside his brother, he's quite good at matching him step by step and keeping the illusion alive. Teamwork is an important part of their daily lives, doing what they do. And they do it well, despite their sometimes rocky relationship. He's very book-smart, well-read in a lot of areas, even outside of hunting.
... Also, he has a fear of clowns.
Fuck you, Dean.
Inventory:
• A lumberjack's wet dream: hoodie, long-sleeved flannel shirt, t-shirt. The usual outfit of a hunter, duh.
• Some bare essentials from the car to keep stowed away in the TQ locker:
(2) stakes
(4) old books on the paranormal and his father's journal
(1) vial of dead man's blood
(3) rosaries
(2) knives, (1) switchblade for carrying
(1) lb. of delish salt for the sake of his locker looking complete
(1) empty shotgun
(1) handgun with (1) clip of ammunition already loaded
(1) lighter and small bottle of lighting fluid
(1) lock pick set
(4) old books on the paranormal and his father's journal
(1) vial of dead man's blood
(3) rosaries
(2) knives, (1) switchblade for carrying
(1) lb. of delish salt for the sake of his locker looking complete
(1) empty shotgun
(1) handgun with (1) clip of ammunition already loaded
(1) lighter and small bottle of lighting fluid
(1) lock pick set
Appearance: 6'5", brown hair and mostly green eyes (those fuckers keep changing whenever they want idk); he's portrayed by Jared Padalecki. He likes layers and nice walks on the beach.
What a moose.
This is an accurate representation of how he was captured from wildlife and taken to the Tranquility:
Age: 22 (D.O.B. : May 2, 1983)
AU Clarification: N/A
S A M P L E S
Log Sample:
No problem, he thinks, straightening the lapels of a cheap black suit. All he had to do was whip out the fake ID and try not to look like he was just thrown into a bookshelf an hour earlier — which is still seriously tender, no thanks to a couple dozen china plates and a vase. Dean of course stayed behind in the Impala with a massively ugly split lip and swollen eye to accompany a sprained ankle, none too amused with his brother's tight-lipped grimace-turned-smile (look, it's not funny that he got hurt at all, buuut the way he walked right into that fist was priceless). He can work cellphone details. There's the spirit. And meanwhile, he can get a few answers out of the local sheriff they'd met a few days prior; no matter which case of obvious shape-shifter they strutted into, it consistently traced back to the police station. Soggy, gross piles of skin weren't the only private eye works a pair of hunters could pick up on, after all.
Heeee's pretty sure Dean made a quip about cops being supernaturally corrupt or something, but — well. He was engrossed in reading at the time.
Ten deaths over a span of a month, all people who'd been freed from their cells on bail bonds. Clearly somebody with a vendetta against would-be criminals wasn't too enthused by the prospect; everyone in the town's been told it's some nutcracker vigilante, but they're also the people who have no clue what the hell a shape-shifter is. For now, use the situation to our advantage. Whoever the guy who threw them around like a punching bag is, he sure isn't about to cause a ruckus right in front of a bunch of co-workers with loaded guns.
Sam sits down in too-soft chair and clears his throat, while the sheriff nods his way.
"Sorry to hear your partner was put out of commission for this case, Agent — what was it again? Pennywise?"
The most unamused smile ever follows.
"... That'd be me."
... Next time he's picking the last names.
Comms Sample:
... This is definitely one of my weirder days.
[100% definitely. Once you add 'space' to the equation, there's not much else you can add to make it more crazy. Except, y'know, for all the different awful things that've been recorded happening around here. He sighs through his nose. So done with your weird shit, Tranquility.]
But I guess there's no point keeping score now; actually, I was wondering how many of you had any written material aboard the ship? Any at all that would be historically helpful? Myths? Tall tales? Anything like that. I have a few books myself, but I'd since I'm stuck here, I might as well stay updated on just about anything I can get my hands on.
[Also any shred of knowledge might just save his ass someday, but still.]
And if anyone had firsthand accounts of the things this ship does, I'd like to hear about it... if it's not too much to ask, since it can be pretty brutal around here as far as I've heard. [The last thing he needs is to step on anyone's toes other than his brother's. Besides, it's his brother's job to say all the politically incorrect and/or completely unhelpful stuff.]
Current Inventory
• A lumberjack's wet dream: hoodie, long-sleeved flannel shirt, t-shirt. The usual outfit of a hunter, duh.
• Some bare essentials from the car to keep stowed away in the TQ locker:
(2) stakes
(4) old books on the paranormal and his father's journal
(1) vial of dead man's blood
(3) rosaries
(2) knives, (1) switchblade for carrying
(1) lb. of delish salt for the sake of his locker looking complete
(1) empty shotgun
(1) handgun with (1) clip of ammunition half-loaded (lost half in Tate fight later on)
(1) lighter and small bottle of lighting fluid
(1) lock pick set
Received as of Jump 22:
• goofer dust just in case a hellhound tries to murder him (you never know man)
• EMF detector lol
•
lucky rabbit's foot lol(properly burned)• Ouija board lOL
• cellphone from end of season 4